That I'm never on here anymore? It's not because I don't love you guys. It's just I either have nothing to say or I'm uber busy with work and school. Although normally it's the first one. I mean every time I go to write a new poem I think about Aaron. And I want to write a poem about him.

But theres no way I could attempt to describe him. I'd be staring at a blank screen for the rest of my life just trying to find the right words. I could write a million poems and still not cover everything thats totally amazing about him. He opened me up like a book and read me through and through. He understood me more than anyone else ever could. Then he opened my eyes to an entirely new world. He is now the keeper of my stolen heart, the very person I want to wake up to. The one I want to be with. He is simply undescribable.

And no words can ever be spoken or written that will measure up to him. I try to write it in a poem, but everytime I try, I throw it away. It's not good enough for him. So instead I go day by day thinking of him and missing him. My body misses him, my heart misses him, my soul misses him. It's him that makes me smile. It's him that makes the pain go away. It's him that wipes away the tears. It's him that I love.

In the past, I've been willing to let relationships just fade away. But with this one I'm willing to fight for it. To hold on to it as long as I can. I've ran away from past relationships, scared of getting hurt. But this time just a second of the joy I feel when I'm around Aaron, makes any future pain worth it.

I thought I had found love before but that was nothing compared to what I feel for Aaron.

Now I've said more than I ment to. I just ment to say sorry that I haven't been on much. I still love you guys. =]

~Nessa